Hi all, thanks for your concerns and pms ,much appreciated ..

Ma I live in nowra,

Im ok , just totaly shattered and heart broken, trying not to beat myself up about all this
see, i havent known anything else for the last ten years,
when mum was alive and dementia I'd look after her when dad wet out and did his legacy work etc
then she passed on nearly 5 years ago,and ever since its been me and dad, almost every day, except when we've been
away on our own trips etc..

I thought id go over and clean out the tardis and wash it, thought it would break the ice so to speak
think im going to need more than the titanic to break this iceberg... I need a miricile or some thing..
i think im the only one out of all the family that have spent this much time with dad, they do what they can
and i respect that...

even when i messed up big time nearly ten years ago it wasnt as bad as this...
I am just so frustrated, angry and heartbroken.... i dont think dad harldy said 2 words to me or even looked at me
as i was there.. its going to be a long time before were even close to normal..
ill still keep logging in and seing my friends on here, i got no where else to go...

its been a rough ride.. and i want to get off...

 

ive booked in  at

Batemans Bay North Tourist Park

http://maps.google.com.au/maps/place?cid=3708743975461377740&q=caravan+parks+batemans+bay+nsw&hl=en-GB&gl=au&ved=0CE4Q-gswAg&sa=X&ei=V6CjTtz0MMi6kgWqgZG3CA&sig2=zN3cbeYwL3MVwdEB0ExDMQ

 

it was the cheapest i can afford right now, need a couple of days away..

milo

 

 

 

-- Edited by milo on Sunday 23rd of October 2011 04:55:51 PM

Sheba wrote:

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Just back from a couple of days away, getting organised for my House/animal sitting stint.

I feel so bad for you Milo.  Wish I could just wiggle my nose and fix it for you, but it doesn't work that way I'm afraid.

Be patient mate.  Looks like it's going to take longer than we all  hoped.

Just remember we're all thinking of you.

Hope you had a reasonably good break away.  [All things considered.]

Cheers,

Sheba.

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 thanks sheba, its not till the 4th november.. but i just need to get away...

 

 ill see how i go by this time next week..if i go or not..

 

-- Edited by milo on Sunday 23rd of October 2011 09:19:04 PM

Happywanderer wrote:

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milo, you are being far too hard on yourself. I feel for you what you must be going through, but stop beating yourself up.
Maybe time to say to your dad, " I did nothing wrong, so stop giving me a hard time, you dad are ruining a great relationship we have had all these years" Then walk out and leave him to approach you once he has thought about it.

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 ........and because the Tardis is his, don't be suprised if he tell you to bugger off when you offer to clean it, so don't be upset if he does.  I would leave it alone for the time being.

Please give those numbers I gave you further up the thread a ring, there is no shame in that and they are trained to listen and will help you work through the problem.........

 

 

-- Edited by Vic on Monday 24th of October 2011 11:40:11 AM

No worries Milo, just do the best for yourself and your own peace of mind, Adelaide sounds great.

I did a lot of long distance travel in a little Holden Astra years ago, bought my self a two man tent and also a sleeping bag type tent which I used for my accomodation, mostly free camping but also in Caravan parks, worked out well and a little more comfortable than sleeping in a car.

If you using the sleeping bag type just be careful to put it in a place where it is protected, someone nearly ran over me once, reckoned they couldn't see me........

-- Edited by Vic on Monday 24th of October 2011 07:29:39 PM

well , thats it then ..
went to see dad , as it had been a week, and we had a talk
not a heated one but just one that we didnt enjoy..
basicly we are ok on terms, but dad has said for me not to go over every
day like i was before, or to call me every day, maybe once a week or once a fortnight..
we talked about my finances and how a friend has helped me out working things out so i know
where i am and he's ok with that.. but our relationship we had has gone..
so i might as well be living in another state/country or universe..
i dunno.. darn families, nothing like it is on tv.. i hope one day to get myself a little campervan
and just do some travelling on my own in the next couple years, maybe settle myself down in adelaide next
year. who knows..its going to be different now.. if only i kept my mouth shut..

Yes, its all about the privacy laws today. But a simple thing by a doctor, who should have cosidered this first up has broken these rules. He also should have had more sense and thought about his words.

Milo, your dad seems to be very concerned about his independance at the moment and is saying to himself "I don't want people interferring with my life" However, he WILL need you. Just wait until that time comes and everythig will work out.. Be patient with him and let him work through it.

Space Milo Space, eventually he will come to you, he probably feels like after all the years of being the parent he is now being treated like a kid, BUT you really did do the right thing it was your Doctor who did the wrong thing, just try and chill out for awhile and pursue other interests.

thank you all for being so caring, all in your own ways. much appreciated,
just going to give it till early next year before i make any drastic life changes..
this has been very very tough..thanks again every one..

I had a vague idea of doing something like that when I bought my i30. I even made the salesman get in and lie down to see if it was long enough with the back seats down! It folds flat so I wouldn't have bothered with the stretcher, just throw in a mattress. I think one would have to be a bit nimble to crawl into the back....which I most definitely am not! The i30 wagon would be easier as there's no 'lip' at the back, and it's a little longer.

well, dad and i have had a good yarn..
ok i think now, but wont be like it was ...
we've a greed to disagree on things and whats happened from whats been on
and other stuff thats gone on, so i can live with that if he can.. thats all i can do now..
done my best..